Sunday, February 24, 2013

tiny trembling heart

i can't hear you beating
your hands across the sky
like a whimpering dawn
pink and pale purple, stringing along a chain of
endless Sundays.

we march and martyr
in spite of (or perhaps because) of
an early spring
it is warm too suddenly
and my jackets are too heavy to carry

i can't give much thought to action
an arsonist with water for fire.
escape these petty instruments and protocols
enveloped in my sweet sadness
moist to the touch, damp with expectations and
dew. something new.

save my hopes in the cuff of your pants
underneath the hat i got you
in Jamaica.
if you put the horseshoe upside down,
all the luck spills out
saturates the centuries
the mystified hoards of inaction and good intent

spread across the span of the couch
with thick extremities of muscle and plaid
like honey on toast
you shan't be drenched in it
should you venture closer?

Friday, February 22, 2013

p is an upside down d

I have a bump on my head. I need to get it checked out. I called the person who will be helping me choose my primary care physician, but she didn't pick up. I am afraid of "pre-existing" conditions, and moderately concerned for my liver. I want to get blood work done because I want to find out what my blood type is. I have always thought it was O- because both my mother and father are, but I realized maybe I shouldn't go around spurting that as a fact until I get it checked out. Check for STDs, and maybe speak to a nutritionist. I have big plans for the future.

I'm a go getter.

In other news I had a phone informational interview with one of my gurus in terms of Latino Community engagement. She is so cool, I hope that I can cultivate that relationship and that it yields something productive in terms of career opportunities/ professional development.
I am so gun-ho about making a difference.

Let's see where that takes me.


And now, the reason why you are (we are) here.

I have a date tonight.

It happened kinda randomly actually, this cute, redhead, freckly, tall, beardy, man sent me a message this morning.

It said this:
ggriff: Hey there..... the robot bot thinks we might get along. I'm always hesitant to be serious about this website as it seems somewhat awkward to meet women on ' the inter webs' but you seem interesting and if the 3-D you is similar to the okCupid you I think we might get along.

If you feel the same let me know

G

So within like ten minutes I said this:
idundas: Hey "G"!

Yes. It is slightly awkward, but it's what we signed up for, right? 3D me is similar, but much cooler and softer than internet me.
I'm interested.

Let's meet.

:)

-Ivel 


Cool right? I am pretty much the best message replier ever. So later on he instant messaged me and we chatter for a while. That was like, playing it cool and also getting him to think about how soft I am.
HA.

Anyway, we are meeting at the Oakland museum tonight.

I'll tell you how it goes.


Tuesday, February 19, 2013

SO, I used to have a dating blog a while back...

And, I don't have the time to start a blog really.

But the last two "people I dated" have really made me reconsider keeping a blog to reccount the ridiculousness.
And it might actually prove to be a good way to document these transitions and be an ideal procrastination activity. So, I am going to start with a little cut & paste because I was thinking about changing my profile.



idundas

30 / F / Straight / Single
Oakland, California

My Details

Last Online
Online now!
Ethnicity
Height
5′ 5″ (1.65m).
Body Type
Curvy
Diet
Mostly anything
Smokes
No
Drinks
Often
Drugs
Religion
Sign
Libra but it doesn’t matter
Education
Working on masters program
Job
Income
Offspring
Doesn’t have kids
Pets
Likes dogs and likes cats
Speaks
English (Fluently), Spanish (Fluently)
My self-summary
Greetings, fellow dating site denizen,
Let me tell you a little bit about me, so that you may then have the tools to decide whether this venture merits further investigation.
I am from the east coast, and I think I identify with whatever connotations are associated with that (more grits, less granola?). However, I have lived in the Oakland for about three years all told, and some of that has definitely rubbed off on me.
I have a bright personality and sheer joy for life that bleeds out of every pore. I am rarely cranky (except during menstruation times) and have generally contagious high spirits.
I get excited about science, informal learning, evaluation methods, philosophy, toe socks, and going to the beach. I dislike mustaches but Love beards. I like salt and pepper hair.

I lead a very busy life, but I make time for the things I want to do. I like to be active, whether it be going out on hikes, checking out new bars or restaurants, or going to museums. I love to try new things.
I am not very judgmental (except for you, because this is a dating site..) and feel like there are many ways to live life, and that there is no inherently good or bad way to live it, just a series of choices.

I have finally reached a point in my life in which I have a steadfast plan that I am really excited about, though my future is by no means mapped out.
I think I am going to really enjoy my thirties, in a different way than I enjoyed my 20s. Young enough to still engage in all the active pursuits I want, and old enough to know what it feels like to be comfortable and confident in my own skin.
I can be silly or serious, but always passionate.

I live life deliberately.

(:

Read below to find out more, Or, Click Away to discover another body!
What I’m doing with my life
Working @ a wonderful little coffee shop/ tea garden.
Writing my theses.
Hanging out with friends.

(procrastinating quite a bit)
I’m really good at
Cooking tasty food.

Parallel parking, sometimes without looking. One time I was drunk in the passenger seat and the driver didn't know how to parallel park. So I verbally walked them through a perfect park. I then fell out of the car (haha, just kidding).

Observing. I do it as part of my job, and I am just fascinated by people and their numerous interactions. All of the cues we drop and pick up on, it's amazing. I think one of the reasons people tend to really like me is because I care, and one of the reasons that I care is that what you do in your every life matters. The repercussions of even the simplest actions undulate far beyond intent, so make the first ripple a good one.

Staying calm. Getting worked up over something you can't change is a waste of energy. Getting worked up over something you can change is misdirected energy.

Being happy. Because, why not, really.

Never sitting still!
The first things people usually notice about me
My hair. My eyes. My smile. My knee high socks.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
I like science fiction, history, philosophy, non-fiction, and some humor books. The Haggis on Whey series is one of my most prized possessions .

My favorite movies are Star Wars (A New Hope), Forbidden Zone, Garden State, and Mary and Max. I love foreign films.

I don't watch many TV shows, but I really like documentaries, and that is usually what I will put on. I like all types of those and am usually in the mood for a certain kind with my top favorites being nature, historical, and biographical.
Monty Python: Flying Circus is Hilarious, I also liked Faulty Towers.

Musically I like all sorts of things but I am not super into it like some folks. Here are some artists I favor: Modest Mouse, Grouch & Eligh, Tallest Man on Earth, Man Man, Nina Simone, Chavela Vargas, Buena Vista Social Club, Edith Piaf, Etta James, Dead Kennedys. I like folky stuff, and hip hop stuff, and yer momma stuff. Who the heck reads these damn lists anyway. Spoon.

oysters, brie, rare burgers, Vitamin Water, sweet potato fries, country fried steak, cous cous, broccoli, dandelion greens, ginger, sharp cheddar, tortilla soup, ANY kind of soup, green tea mochi, pho, salmon, grits, waffles, bok choy, deep dish pizza, tofu, pork rinds, greens, pop corn, nutella, braggs, pistachios, etc...

I was vegetarian for a long time (9 years) and recently started eating meat again. I enjoy it, but flirt with the idea of being veggie again. Or at least pescatarian, I think that was my favorite.
The six things I could never do without
coffee, kisses, the ocean, a challenge, my yoda slippers, bourbon

(those all in one day, is like, a good day for me)
I spend a lot of time thinking about
Everything.

My theses.

What I will do with my life when I graduate grad school.

Sex!
On a typical Friday night I am
Clean sheets are the best.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
My screen name is a take on ad undas.

( Ad undas : An expression of Latin origin meaning to the waves, often used when you've failed and everything's going straight to hell.)

:D
I’m looking for
  • Straight guys only
  • Ages 30–36
  • Near me
  • Who are single
  • For new friends, long-term dating, short-term dating, activity partners
You should message me if
If any of the above strikes your fancy, drop me a line. 
SO, not much ttaction after that.. lets see what comes next...